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Weblog Archives March Wednesday, March 19, 2003 I'm still struggling with some contract work that I have been trying to complete since the boy was born. It is driving me crazy yet it is hard to care enough to actually get it done. When the boy came early, I still had about three weeks of work left to wrap up, so I told my former employers that I would complete it at home. At the time I thought that the boy was going to be in hospital without me for a week or two and that I would be spending long hours home alone needing something to occupy my mind. However, I actually spent the week after I got out of hospital running back and forth to the NICU to nurse him. That turner into NO TIME to work on the stuff. Gradually I had to back burner it in order to maintain my sanity in the face of no sleep ever and now it is 16 months later, I'm still not getting any sleep and I don't even know if they still want this work. I do know that I want the money for it so I guess I better hop to. I must get this work out of the way in order to get on with my life. Tuesday, March 18, 2003 Boy, to look at my last entry it would seem that the boy has been awake for over two weeks. That's not strictly the case, but I have been busy. I've done a dessert party, a dessert theatre and some sleeping since then. I don't have anything clever to say though. I had a dream about my very ex-boyfriend(12 years ago) last night. It couldn't have really been him because he was acting like a reasonable human being and he was not. That's even allowing for the demonization of ex-boyfriends that is part of the recovery process. However, interestingly enough, in my dream I was given the choice between this enlightened (non) ex and my husband and I chose Steve. Clearly, anyone would choose Steve if given the chance in real life but I did it even in my dreams. That is bizarrely comforting to me. I love that man. © Christine C. Hennebury |
